The Boy That Everyone Loves

improvements.

seeing that i have been so bad this semester at blogging…i am going to try super hard this summer to post as often as possible. i’ll probably fail but im going to try so after thursday…expect more posts!!

Im Such a Bad Friend

So I haven’t blogged in a while but I think I have to now because I have something inside of me that I just want to get off of my chest. Last semester I had an amazing friend. I did so much stuff with her and I told her so much stuff about me. She still knows a lot about me. This semester things changed and we kind of grew apart but I still would always say hi to her and smile and be nice but we did not hang out as much as we used to. Our friendship this semester feels different. This past week I did a really shitty thing. I regret doing it so much and I really didn’t mean to hurt you and I am so sorry that I did. I should have never posted that wall post on facebook. It was so immature of me and so rude. I don’t know what the fuck I was thinking. I clearly was not thinking at all. I just hate that we don’t talk anymore. I miss grabbing starbucks with you in between classes. I miss hearing your stories. I miss hanging out with you. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to lose you. I feel like I already have though. I wish I could go back in time and go back to how things used to be. You are an incredible person. I want to call you my friend forever. I wish that you can forgive me for the shitty person that I was this semester. I want to be friends again. I want to be able to visit you over the summer and hang out with you. I really do miss having you in my life and I just wished that I had a sign from you that you felt the same way and you missed me too. I really don’t know how or why we let this happen. You moved closer to me living wise but yet we have grown apart. I just want to get a fishing rod and reel you back into me. I miss you. I love you. Please forgive me. I don’t want to end this semester on a bad foot with you and I do not want to lose you. I am sorry. 

living the good life…

life is so good at the moment. i am loving it. i love the university of miami. i really really do. i think everyone will agree. the people hear are just so nice and i love all my friends. this week was a little hectic but it is all good. i have a new family in my business fraternity and i am obsessed with them. my big kristin is my life. she is so cute and so much fun and i had the best time with her, my grand big…andra, tyler, and will on wednesday night. i am looking forward to hanging out with my family and getting to know them all soon. i am really loving akpsi and meeting all these new people. it is fantastic.

aepi is going well. i haven’t really done anything with them or have gotten to know a lot of the other founding fathers but i know after spring break that will change. the guys seem really nice and i am looking forward to calling them my brothers. i am so happy with how things are going in my life right now.

im so excited for spring break. a week in the bahamas is going to be absolutely amazing. im going to get tan, and be drunk, and lay on the beach, and its just going to be incredible. i think it is so leg that after meeting people in august…we are going on vacation together. i am very pleased with my college friends. if people who say…you meet your best friends in college…are correct…then i am super glad i came to UM because i have honestly met some of the greatest people in the world. i love everyone. im happy. i love life.

i don’t really know what else to say. my grades are blah. hmm we’ll i guess this is all for now…more to come in what 2 weeks? 3 weeks? alicia and jessica…im going to really try to blog more after spring break. like really. and go to the gym. and diet. and lose weight. and get skinny. i want to be skinny. like stick skinny. like one pound higher than looking unhealthly skinny. i think skinny boys are cuter than boys with meat on them. i don’t know why i just do. my muffin top has got to go. chartys needs healthy alternatives. ugh. mmk. love you bitches.

when all your friends go to the beach…you might as well blog.

so i awoke this morning. checked my phone and saw that i had no texts or bbms. mmk. i then started texting people and found out that everyone went to the beach. fabulous. im so glad so many people thought to invite me. whatever. no big deal. because no one felt the need to see if i wanted to go to the beach with them i now have nothing to do today so i might as well blog because my stressful week is over.

although this past week was extremely stressful as far as school work goes…i learned many things and ended up finishing the week on a good foot. obviously the weekend is starting out shitty but whatever. not every weekend can be fabulous. so i ended up getting an 85 on my accounting test. ehh. i’ll take it but i feel like even though an 85 isn’t that bad…i got the lowest grade in my class. it was the first test and i was cramming which i now know is not a good idea. i plan on showing improvement and doing better next time. i also had a economics test and business law quiz this week. they were both average. i guess we’ll see on monday how the results turned out. im really trying hard this semester. i didn’t do bad last semester but i know i easily could have gotten a much higher gpa. 

yesterday i had the most amazing day ever. thank god for my cousin visiting or really wouldn’t have seen the beach until the bahamas. my cousin jill who is 29 and a teacher in manhattan had this week off of school so she came down to florida and came to visit yesterday. she took me to sobe and laid on the beach for most of the day! it was perfect. soo sunny and not a cloud in sight. i really like getting out of class at 11 on fridays. its so relaxing. we had dinner at pizza rustica which was absolutely delicious and then went to this cute little ice cream place for dessert. i love lincoln road. when i get a car here i am seriously going to hit up lincoln constantly. its so fresh. 

i also got fabulous news yesterday:) it is official. i am a founding father of AEPi at the university of miami and will be moving into a newly renovated frat house in the fall. i am so excited. i have always wanted to be a frat boy and in AEPi and now both things are happening. i got the news yesterday as soon as i got to the beach and it just made my day so so so much better. 

last night was a chill night. after a long stressful week i decided i just needed to stay in and do laundry and relax. i didn’t result to drinking away my stress and problems. i am proud of myself. at 2am me and carlie and nicole rented a zip car and went to taco bell and mcdonalds. i love those girls. i can’t believe we have been together since day one and are still the best of friends. they are so incredible and i am so excited to spend a week with them over spring break in the fucking bahamas. this was our second zip car adventure. we took one last semester and it was fantastic. i am sure there will be more in the future before the end of the semester.

well, i guess that is it. i don’t know what else to say. i think i’ll go do some homework and be productive today. i’d rather be on the beach but that didn’t happen today. maybe next weekend. probably not though. don’t know what im doing tonight. we’ll see if people decide to invite me to go out with them tonight or if it turns into another saturday in the dorms doing god knows what. thats all. 

sorry.

ok. i know i haven’t updated. unfortunately this week is super busy. i have two tests and a quiz and a paper and a shitload to do for the business frat that i am just going to have to procrastinate a little longer before i update. love you all. hope you all understand. after this week i am going to be super good at updating and update every day! ok…we’ll see about that i know…its kinda like my dieting…i always say im going to diet and then fail…although i said i would start my spring break diet today and so far so good. i had a salad. we’ll see what dinner brings…im thinking a sandwhich…i looked online and shartwells is going to be shittay tonight and im sure we’ll all be shittang after we consume its deliciousness. ok bitches back to studying for accounting…love you all.

Long Overdue.

to those of you that check on a daily basis to see if i have updated…i hope this makes you happy today:) wow. i have so much stuff to talk about. its been too long since i have posted. there has been so much going on in my life. its absolutely crazy. i really do need to update more often because i can’t possibly catch everyone up on every single thing thats going on.

well…lets see…where to begin? i guess we can start with how much better my life has been since someone got the hint that i wasn’t interested in friendship with them and has left my life. although we have mutual friends…keeping my distance from them is working out beautifully and its so nice not having them around. whenever i enter a room and they are there i have learned how to act and behave just as if they weren’t in the room and i never saw them. i must admit though, it is kind of obnoxious when they are in my presenece and aren’t even speaking to any of MY friends. i say MY in all caps because they really were my friends first. i love people who look up and admire me and strive to be as fierce as i am but at the same time i love individuals and people who do their own thing and don’t give a shit about what other people think about them. i like to think that i am balanced and overall a good person. i know i have my flaws and things about me that people don’t admire but i like to think that in general people have a good time when i am around and enjoy having me in their presence. my main goal on a daily basis is to put as many smiles on people’s faces as possible. i feel that i am a happy person…always…i am rarely sad or depressed…frustrated and angry sometimes…but that is natural….in general if there was one word to describe me it would be happy. my fourth grade teacher…mrs brisbane…told my parents that once at a parent/teacher conference…”your son is always happy and smiling…he knows how to brighten up a classroom and that is a very special thing about him that i admire”. whenever someone asks for three words to describe myself…happy is always the first word i choose:)

moving on…i am currently phoneless…let me tell you…it sucks balls and not in the good way that i enjoy;) ok matthew…stop it…but seriously! this past week has been awful! well awful in the sense that i have no phone! and att and go fuck themselves! they sent me a new phone and it came yesterday and i got soo excited and i opened the box and there was the box for my new child…the bberray…it seriously is like a child to me…and i opened the box and the phone was not there! how the fuck do you not remember to put the phone back in the box after you assemble and activate it?? dumb bitches! anyway according to the email my mommy sent me…the new phone got sent out last night and should get here today before three! tg!…that means thank god btw…by the way:) i guess my shitshow on friday did have to result in me losing my phone. i did deserve it. friday was such a mess but do you ever have one of those feelings at the end of a long week that all you need to do is get drunk? it was just one of those nights i guess…and because i am such an entertaining drunk…i got to put smiles on people’s faces and make them laugh…even though they were probs laughing at me…fuck that…they were soo laughing with me! 

so currently i am planning on hoping to become a brother in the business frat here called alpha kappa psi. im a little nervous though. i really really want to be in it. it is definitely something that i am interested in and i definitely think i will benefit from it a lot and make tons of new friends…even though i have so many friends as it is…just kidding…not really though…i mean i don’t lie…i am kinda pop…just a little…ok a whole lot…jessica…you are laughing right now. but anyways…i obvi have some slight add…i get off topic loads…umm back to the frat so i had my interview on monday and the vp of membership was questioning me and agreeing with my responses and everything and i think he could tell i was serious about joining. i left with a good feeling but last night at 1245 he sent out invites to the smoker and i didnt receive one. classes were so rough this morning when i found out that taylor and rose and tays bf received invites and i didn’t. i hate having the feeling that people don’t like me. i want to be friends with everyone…except the other…gross…kill me…homo that happens to hang out…occasionally…on pt5…don’t care for him at all or ever want to be friends with him…anyways…i emailed the vp and politely asked if he could let me know what was going on. he told me at my interview that i would receive an email regardless and so i politely asked whether or not i was invited and he responded back with an email that just contained an invitation to the smoker tonight but no explanation or reasoning as to why i didn’t receive one last night. i am hoping it was just a mistake…an overlook or something and not a pitty invite that will let me go tonight but not get into the frat after tonights smoker. i seriously will be very upset. i want to be a member so badly!

ok now onto what you all have been curious about…the boy…ok things with the boy are getting better. he randomly IMed me out of the blue:) it was nice. i had lost my phone so i was sly and told him that “if you tried bbming…blackberry messaging for all you non bberray users…although im going to guess you haven’t bbmed since you havent spoken to me for like 5 days…but im not ignoring you…i lost my phone”. he didn’t really respond to it though. he just replied with a “that sucks” but it was fine. we continued to talk and he told me that he really did have a good time on friday but he isn’t looking for a relationship at the moment…he just got out of a two year relationship. i can understand that. i told him i wasn’t looking for anything in specific but it would be nice if we went out again and he told me he would really like to go out again but he just wanted me to know that it doesn’t mean that we are going to be boyfriends…that doesn’t mean we cant casually date and it turns into something more in the future though…we spoke online last night for a little bit…like 2 hours or so…and it was just great. i really like talking to him and i could see us becoming fabulous friends…if not more…im just taking it slow. im not a skank like some gays that i know…one in particular…but i believe i going slow and getting to know someone before you engage in anything…i mean i have had my random hookups on occasion because sometimes you just need sex but i can proudly say i haven’t had sex since july/august and i have come to school looking for something more than a one night stand. i have been doing a very good job…better than some skanky people that i know. so i am happy with myself. i think me and the boy will probably go out valentine’s weekend. not necessarily on valentine’s day…probs not…that’d be awk but def that friday maybe…although it is friday the 13th so that might be a bad idea…we’ll see but of course i’ll keep you updated!

ok readers…i think i have caught you up on a lot of stuff. i hope you take time to read it. i have spent the past half hour working on my post. i am going to try my hardest to post more often! once a week is not enough! i know! i am just such a buys person! love you all! 

Is it just me or…does knowing that someone read a BBM and is not responding drive you crazy sometime??

ok ok ok ok! soo i know that i said i would update daily and so far that has not happened…but here it is folks! a brand new post! i honestly have no excuse for not updating, i just always feel that this blog posts take so much time to post. i know if i just sit down and start typing away…eventually i will get done posting sooner than i thought. 

so this weekend was very eventful to say the least. it all started out on friday. as i look back on friday night though and keep replaying the events of the evening and everything that happend…i do not understand what is going on and i have no clue what i am supposed to do…for those of you that don’t know what happened on friday night…matthew had a date. it was a really good date too…well i thought at least. the guy who i went out with picked me up at 7 and took me out to dinner at van dykes on lincoln road in south beach. he order an appetizer for us and then without ever discussing what it was that we wanted to eat for dinner we both ended up deciding on the same thing when the waitress came to take our order…i thought that that was an instant sign that things would be awesome between us. so after dinner and a dessert it came time to pay and i insisted that we split the check but my date told me that it was on him because he asked me out and that i could get the next one…okay clearly through dinner we both decided that there was going to be a next time. so after dinner we decided to walk around lincoln…i mean we were already in south beach we might as well look around and see whats happening on the fun and exciting and ever so popular lincoln road. he told me about this ice cream place that when you eat your ice cream it tastes so real and tastes as if you are eating the actual flavor of the ice cream…strawberry ice cream would taste like real strawberrys…i thought it sounded cool and again he said…we’ll have to go sometime…i think you all can see where this is going but let me just continue the story. so after 30 or 45 minutes of walking around we decided to head back to campus. we got back to school and he went to park his car. he shut off the engine and turned to me and told me that he had a really good time and would really like to go out with him again sometime and i told him i definitely would like that…so we were about to open the door when he turned back to me and asked for a good night kiss. i accepted the offer and we shared a gentle kiss for about 30 seconds. we then got out of the car and walked our separate ways back to our dorms. so that was my date…might i ad in the date consisted of no awkward silences…there was conversation the whole time and it just really flowed…i totally could see myself going out with him again and seeing if this could turn into something special. so let me just say…in the car on the way home we were discussing honesty…and i told him how i hate when people lead other people on…if you aren’t interested in someone you should just be honest and tell them instead of saying yes or things that they want to hear because then you lead them on and you just get yourself into something you don’t want to be in…so now you definitely see where this is going…i got back to my dorm and i said fuck it…i had a good time, im not going to wait two days to talk to him again so i sent him a bbm and told him i had a good time and thanked him for taking my to dinner and that i wanted to see him again…he bbmed back and said that he had a good time as well and would like to go out again. then the next day i left to go to delray…we kinda bbmed a little but i personally felt like something had changed over night and he changed his mind about me…it was just weird. so last night we were IMing a little bit and again i got the feeling like he was a different person. so last night before bed i had pretyped a bbm to send him today sometime during the day but this morning at 8am i was in class and went to copy the bbm so i could send it to him this afternoon and by an accident sent it to him…now unlike texts…bbms tell you when someone has read the message…here is what the message said: hey there mister. so as you know…i had a really good time on friday night and as of friday after our date you did too…at least thats what you said. i hope that nothing as changed since friday and that you still would like to go out again…if not i understand but i still owe you dinner so you’ll have to suffer one more meal with me because you bought me dinner on friday so its only fair in my opinion that i get to treat you to dinner now. there are two restaurants in sunset that i love…i know its local and doesn’t compare to lincoln road…but they are still legit. they are called town and sole…i like town more so i think that is where i want to take you if that is okay. i am free for dinner all week and during the weekend too so whenever you are free let me know! that was my bbm…now i kept my phone on silent during my classes this morning…i knew if it vibed i would either have a crappy day or a good day and didn’t want to ruin my day during class. so this morning in econ my mommy texted me that it was snowing and i noticed the little clock next to my guys bbm face vanished so i clicked on his name and there next to the check mark was an R meaning he read the message…this was around 930 this morning…it is now 624 and he has yet to respond to my message or bbm me or IM or contact me at all….i don’t know what to do. i honestly thought we clicked. how can you tell me you want to go out again. ask for a goodnight kiss. then repeat it again that you want to go out again…and now ignore me and not talk to me? ugh i will never find a life partner…i know i sound ridiculous…its just one date but…still. i don’t know what i am supposed to do from here. i hate waiting. i just want honesty. when you all read this…im going to need advice!

wow soo much other shit went down this weekend but i’ll save that for tomorrow’s post…or next weeks;) but i feel like this post has definitely made up for me not posting last week! i have left you with a lot! happy reading loves:) 

Feels so good to be home…

So one of my New Year’s resolutions for the year 2009 was to start a blog. Everyone on PT5 does it and since I would be on their floor if I had a vagina…I decided that I should start my own and I decided that the perfect time to begin my blog would be after the second semester started. 

It feels so good to be home. I think I can honestly say that Miami quickly began my home. I mean I felt right at home the first time I ever set foot on campus way back in the spring of 2007. After my first visit I knew that this is where I would end up going to school and that is why I applied here Early Decision. Anyways…enough about that. It really is nice being back at school. I never thought I would meet such an amazing group of human beings down here. Being a month away from them was one of the hardest things ever. I have only known my friends down here for 5 months but after living with people and seeing them every single day, you see just how quickly these people become not only friends, but also family. I told some people back at home that being away from my Miami crowd for only a month is harder than being away from the friends that I have grown up with for four.

The second semester has officially begun. My classes are very good…well except for economics. The teacher is a grad student and has no personality and is just all around boring. I must say that I am proud of myself for being able to get up and out of bed the past two mornings in order to get to my 8am on time…which I sadly have 5 days a week. I must say though, today was a fabulous day and I think I might enjoy the 8am 5 days a week. I finished class at 11 today and went to the gym. I repeat, finished class at 11 today and went to the gym. Yes ladies and gentlemen, Matthew Gaston Perreault went to the gym today. It feels soo good working out. Like I am very glad I decided to go because I felt so good afterwards. All morning in my classes…mostly economics because I was bored and sleepy…I was thinking that I would skip the gym but then something inside me shouted out “NO!” and I got into my gym clothes and elipticalled for 45 minutes. I don’t know how far I went or how many calories I burned because as I was beginning my cool down, a cute gay boy sat on the bench waiting for a machine to free up and our eyes met and I got off mine to give it to him and forgot to check and see my progress. If he’ll be there every morning then I think I will definitely be going to the gym more often. Along with the gym, my goal is to eat healthier. Last semester my diet consisted of cheeseburgers for lunch and dinner along with a slice of pizza or two and what ever else I felt like eating. I have been home since saturday and I am proud to say that I have yet to consume a cheeseburger from the grille in shartys. I also have cut soda out of my diet since being back and have been very successful with that. I am not so much concerned about losing weight, I just want to slim down and look good. I refuse to buy clothes until I am satisfied with my body. I know I can do it. It has been kind of hard and the caffeine headaches are kicking in but I can fight them and succeed. 

Earlier today I made an executive decision NOT to rush a fraternity. As much as I love the idea of having a brotherhood and group of guys to hang out with, I realized that the rush process just isn’t my thing. I really think that I would do well in a frat and that a lot of people would respect me and actually want me in theirs. I would definitely be good with the social aspects and could throw parties and mixers and what not and also help out a great deal with the community service. The reason why I am not rushing is because the rush events make me feel uncomfortable. I am not one to go out and play sports and when I meet guys for the first time I tense up and get nervous. I never had straight guy friends growing up and since I got to school I have made many. It is nice to see that people like me for me and it feels great to be accepted. I really like talking to all the guys on my floor and well as other guy friends I made throughout the semester last year. I feel like if the frats saw me at parties and in social settings then they would definitely want to call me a brother. I am glad though that you don’t need to be involved in greek life in order to fit in here. Maybe I will decide to rush in the fall. I am probably going to rush the business fraternity here at UM. It is coed and that is better for me! 

I am glad I started this blog and I look forward to updating daily. I find it nice to be able to sit down and type out what is on my mind and what happened to me during the day. I hope the PT5 girls will bookmark me and continue to check up and see what I have been posting. I have rambled on a great deal today and think that now is a good place to say goodbye. Until tomorrow…

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XOXO…The Boy That Everyone Loves