Im Such a Bad Friend
So I haven’t blogged in a while but I think I have to now because I have something inside of me that I just want to get off of my chest. Last semester I had an amazing friend. I did so much stuff with her and I told her so much stuff about me. She still knows a lot about me. This semester things changed and we kind of grew apart but I still would always say hi to her and smile and be nice but we did not hang out as much as we used to. Our friendship this semester feels different. This past week I did a really shitty thing. I regret doing it so much and I really didn’t mean to hurt you and I am so sorry that I did. I should have never posted that wall post on facebook. It was so immature of me and so rude. I don’t know what the fuck I was thinking. I clearly was not thinking at all. I just hate that we don’t talk anymore. I miss grabbing starbucks with you in between classes. I miss hearing your stories. I miss hanging out with you. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to lose you. I feel like I already have though. I wish I could go back in time and go back to how things used to be. You are an incredible person. I want to call you my friend forever. I wish that you can forgive me for the shitty person that I was this semester. I want to be friends again. I want to be able to visit you over the summer and hang out with you. I really do miss having you in my life and I just wished that I had a sign from you that you felt the same way and you missed me too. I really don’t know how or why we let this happen. You moved closer to me living wise but yet we have grown apart. I just want to get a fishing rod and reel you back into me. I miss you. I love you. Please forgive me. I don’t want to end this semester on a bad foot with you and I do not want to lose you. I am sorry.
2 years ago • Notes