Is it just me or…does knowing that someone read a BBM and is not responding drive you crazy sometime??
ok ok ok ok! soo i know that i said i would update daily and so far that has not happened…but here it is folks! a brand new post! i honestly have no excuse for not updating, i just always feel that this blog posts take so much time to post. i know if i just sit down and start typing away…eventually i will get done posting sooner than i thought.
so this weekend was very eventful to say the least. it all started out on friday. as i look back on friday night though and keep replaying the events of the evening and everything that happend…i do not understand what is going on and i have no clue what i am supposed to do…for those of you that don’t know what happened on friday night…matthew had a date. it was a really good date too…well i thought at least. the guy who i went out with picked me up at 7 and took me out to dinner at van dykes on lincoln road in south beach. he order an appetizer for us and then without ever discussing what it was that we wanted to eat for dinner we both ended up deciding on the same thing when the waitress came to take our order…i thought that that was an instant sign that things would be awesome between us. so after dinner and a dessert it came time to pay and i insisted that we split the check but my date told me that it was on him because he asked me out and that i could get the next one…okay clearly through dinner we both decided that there was going to be a next time. so after dinner we decided to walk around lincoln…i mean we were already in south beach we might as well look around and see whats happening on the fun and exciting and ever so popular lincoln road. he told me about this ice cream place that when you eat your ice cream it tastes so real and tastes as if you are eating the actual flavor of the ice cream…strawberry ice cream would taste like real strawberrys…i thought it sounded cool and again he said…we’ll have to go sometime…i think you all can see where this is going but let me just continue the story. so after 30 or 45 minutes of walking around we decided to head back to campus. we got back to school and he went to park his car. he shut off the engine and turned to me and told me that he had a really good time and would really like to go out with him again sometime and i told him i definitely would like that…so we were about to open the door when he turned back to me and asked for a good night kiss. i accepted the offer and we shared a gentle kiss for about 30 seconds. we then got out of the car and walked our separate ways back to our dorms. so that was my date…might i ad in the date consisted of no awkward silences…there was conversation the whole time and it just really flowed…i totally could see myself going out with him again and seeing if this could turn into something special. so let me just say…in the car on the way home we were discussing honesty…and i told him how i hate when people lead other people on…if you aren’t interested in someone you should just be honest and tell them instead of saying yes or things that they want to hear because then you lead them on and you just get yourself into something you don’t want to be in…so now you definitely see where this is going…i got back to my dorm and i said fuck it…i had a good time, im not going to wait two days to talk to him again so i sent him a bbm and told him i had a good time and thanked him for taking my to dinner and that i wanted to see him again…he bbmed back and said that he had a good time as well and would like to go out again. then the next day i left to go to delray…we kinda bbmed a little but i personally felt like something had changed over night and he changed his mind about me…it was just weird. so last night we were IMing a little bit and again i got the feeling like he was a different person. so last night before bed i had pretyped a bbm to send him today sometime during the day but this morning at 8am i was in class and went to copy the bbm so i could send it to him this afternoon and by an accident sent it to him…now unlike texts…bbms tell you when someone has read the message…here is what the message said: hey there mister. so as you know…i had a really good time on friday night and as of friday after our date you did too…at least thats what you said. i hope that nothing as changed since friday and that you still would like to go out again…if not i understand but i still owe you dinner so you’ll have to suffer one more meal with me because you bought me dinner on friday so its only fair in my opinion that i get to treat you to dinner now. there are two restaurants in sunset that i love…i know its local and doesn’t compare to lincoln road…but they are still legit. they are called town and sole…i like town more so i think that is where i want to take you if that is okay. i am free for dinner all week and during the weekend too so whenever you are free let me know! that was my bbm…now i kept my phone on silent during my classes this morning…i knew if it vibed i would either have a crappy day or a good day and didn’t want to ruin my day during class. so this morning in econ my mommy texted me that it was snowing and i noticed the little clock next to my guys bbm face vanished so i clicked on his name and there next to the check mark was an R meaning he read the message…this was around 930 this morning…it is now 624 and he has yet to respond to my message or bbm me or IM or contact me at all….i don’t know what to do. i honestly thought we clicked. how can you tell me you want to go out again. ask for a goodnight kiss. then repeat it again that you want to go out again…and now ignore me and not talk to me? ugh i will never find a life partner…i know i sound ridiculous…its just one date but…still. i don’t know what i am supposed to do from here. i hate waiting. i just want honesty. when you all read this…im going to need advice!
wow soo much other shit went down this weekend but i’ll save that for tomorrow’s post…or next weeks;) but i feel like this post has definitely made up for me not posting last week! i have left you with a lot! happy reading loves:)
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